God shown me the way

last night i busy with adding my adsense onto warren&be21zh's google knol till 10:20pm. on bed i again a bit sleeplessly. in the mud almost unconsciously, when i focus reviewing my kid brother, God, my dad, u again clearest show my ur way. u clearest shown me all the truth i peeked, and incomparable conformed me i was the gifted, the chosen, the Son. God, i know i don't miss anything i own, or i need, and don't miss any holy message i want to know.

God, i now in a circumstance where most common people or evils don't in belief, or even constantly profaned the spirit in me. i fight any time and any way, i look forward to full integrate with u, in one spirit, in the utmost determination. but, God, i don't complain, i here just a process to experience the suffering and the business of my ancestor with glory.

dad, its ur best gift for me now, adsense account!

its so nice to have an adsense account, and right now i own one! after 3 or 4 round of exchanging email about verifying my ownership over my domain against China surveillance blocking my domain, i finally got my google adsense account near the end of work time. nothing can compare with the feeling of complement at the moment when i received the email and swiftily activated it. i worked in office till 7pm to finish first step setup on my google blogger's blogs, and my google knol. later when i attempted to add adsense to more sites of mine, the Internet within lan down, and i had to left. after dinner and accompanying baby playing some pc games for some time, i launched again, trying to add ads to my wordpress blogs, but China surveillance heavily blocking, resulting lagging returning pages. my homepage at registrar, http://be21zh.org , and on google page creator, http://www.be21zh.org , all inaccessible now, even via proxies i tried a lot. dog really hurt, maybe. 

with the adsense account, i felt i was a real content provider. i now live with cyberspace and will on cyberspace. i love google's service so much, its just too beautiful.

today is the second years since my grand dad, my God, left me, exactly. i prayed for the adsense account in afternoon when i wrote a blog for my dad's memorial day, and i at once got it. dad, i never demand u offer all what i want, but u never fail me.

its a wonderful day, since last night i felt sleeplessly. i got all i want, except the kingdom of my dad in view. i never miss anything i owns. i will pick u, surely,my best beloved.

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dad, u left us exactly two years today

these days i busy with site building as usual. last night i felt a bit sleeplessly for i too anxious about coming google adsense account. this morning i continued to fine touch my homepage on google page creator, adding google friend connect and modifying layout, correcting forms' errs. dog in China surveillance blocked my domain since yesterday, for they hate and terrified by our sight over the world. i determined to get my adsense account, expanding our means to penetrating the world of our sight and message for the bright and in Chinese, Ming Dynasty. i had waited for the messaging method for months. 

this noon, after our grandson's mother left at her house, i checked my cellphone and found its ur memorial day. grand Dad, i didn't attend ur funeral ceremony, but God let me pick ur land, and ur kingdom from outside of 2 thousand miles, in this northeastern corner of China. i do enjoy the task u left me, and engaged with it all my life. dad, where can i find u again? those golder years when u attending my growth? dad, i cared my baby like attending u, i took the world onto him just like u attending me aside forever, rid the need of phisically. dad, my God, i forever attending u, forever listen to u, that's my vow in front of God last year when i in crisis. God, u know, and u forever know.

yes, its history, i chose.

yesterday its a cornerstone. the bright morning sunshine turned into snowflake at noon. the Moon sits in the between of 2 stars on night sky. the tv irritated about 800 more years history of Zhou Kingdom. God's message pushed me into wonder since the night before yesterday. i know enemies and cult persons discussed my situation and their viable response. i know God shown me lots of options and evils' bets. i know my most beloved gazing me and some of them begs for my second son. i know some evils in plight in urgency to push me to choose. they seemingly in charges, but they in fact got nothing. my fate in God's set, and i shown all my choice, from then to now. my brain burdened with their reckons and bets to let me gamble. but i from time to time didn't change. i shown my beloved my choice in the past days, and i don't need to blow my head against hot airs from the redden eyes gamblers in the crowd of hopelessly. i live with my God, my grand father. my God. i live in the hope to reunite with my all beloved, for in my kingdom to come i can shelter them and live a happy life with our children with my beloved. that's my message, from then to now.

the coming chill in snowflake really caters to me, for the dirty will around me really need a freeze and tomb to let down them to their destiny. i in need, sometimes the need so strong let me moved, that i miss ur warmth and softness, in ur blossomy face and aromatic hairs, in ur firm caress and ur silver voice. God sees how far i was from u.

bye.

Best regards,
benzrad

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盲言之芒岩
你在清贫中呆得太久了
你分不清月色的石子和清癯的星
眸子的星芒浮于薄霭
厌倦的兽眼阴雨里低低沉吼

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http://knol.google.com/k/ben-zhu/ben-zhu/fr65rgdtqbpx/1#

warren&me now have artistic avatar, with link&logo on it.

i prepared the photo sketching warez the night before yesterday. yesterday in the beginning of the morning i launched to edit our avatars. with the aid of powerful softwares it very easy to got a artistic avatar design. i included our name and website on it, which quite satisfied me. but the process uploaded to my websites uneasy. dog in China surveillance heavily blocked me.last afternoon before the end of work time i almost spent 2 hours vainly trying to upload to qq alumni or my gmail. in the night after i forcifully moved baby who watched dvds for 2 hours away from pc and continuted to upload avatars to qq alumni. uploading finished quite smooth, but when i attempted to set it as my avatar in my profile there, dog again jammed my surfing and forced me gaveup. and they deleted the icq blog of my baby, warren zhu, the hope of China, this 4rd time of deletation.

this morning i uploaded avatars to my picasaweb. but when i backup my files to my gmail, they blocked it again and cut off t he Internet access in lan. they peeking on the lan, and stealen almost all my confidentials. they then broke into my accounts and messed up and blacken/distorted my message under my compromised confidentials. God sees and laughes for the shaddow in the dark of China.

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