bright warm sunny day

my baby received me near the door when i arrived there about 10:00am.i
held him playing for half an hour then went out to receive his
mother.we picked the way to sportsyard and he asked for walking on the
newly heaped earth on the path around the yard on feet.there r 3 or 4
children with their parents there.my baby picked a ditched sore milk
cup so i suggested buying one.then we went to tongxin supermarket
where we bought a cup of sore milk,a bag of fried fish wings and
little bag of sausage.we ate immediately outside of the market.then we
entered the south garden where swarmed with aged people.we had a good
time in the sunshine.when i caught sight of some teachers leaving
through the door of his mother's school i hastened there but still his
mother had to turned back from home to fetch us.after lunch i played
awhile his mother's notebook then we triple went outside.we
accompanied his mother to her school and we went to south garden.i
started to shot my baby.he played on the leaves on ground
concentrately but later insisted to hang the camera and bumped a lot
on the paveway,let me very anxious.he asked for some snack from the
grocer in the garden.when we shifted to sports yard after eating a ice
stick he slept on my shoulder.the old woman laid him on bed and i
started to play with the notebook and the web.the dogs again hacked
the notebook and the antivirus and antispyware and firewall again
broken by the dog,who mostly likely manipulated the telcom to hack our
byte flow,but also possible my os let them faults to break in.its just
too fast.they r more and more desperate to brag their weapons and
brutality.they r losing,just like their doomed fate.
tonight the cafe full of dogs,heavily biting.last night dog among them
let the pc err prone and hanged and reboot itself.dogs union really
losing.they just can't keep their fake peace.fake pretense.god let me
see the breaking light near the end of the tunnel.
bye.i love u.kiss u with pure white of the coming first snow of the
killing winter.

my baby son in the extraordinary warm winter day

milky warm morning sunshine

i woke up at 7:35 am and got up at 8:33.last night i was bited and had
to cop with them awhile and felt pity for myself for god let me
experience this shit.i know all this kind of experience just to let me
be more steadily unbendablely demand a fundamental change to china,to
the shit arrogant persons now.i like my own play,like my baby always
seeking playing with stuff around him,but we r constantly interrupted
by dogs,for they can't support themselves peacefully,they need a beat
to know themselves,to boost their performance.
days and nights let us speechless.silent u let me load too much
burdon,i need ur encouragement,i need ur tender.but u kept
clueless.maybe dogs hinder u,maybe my linger in my existence hinder
u,but i want u know my heart always open for u.my life seemed
peaceful,but i yell for a refreshment.i stare at the sky,i search the
sea of web,i need u bring me another chance.
bye.i love u.kiss u with flavor.

extraordinary warm sunny winter day.

i woke up at 7:22 am and got up at 8:00 am.last night dogs let me
restless awhile and i sometime can't judge in dream or in reality.i
dreamed my elder brother and a country folk broke my house and the
latter attempting to steal something.i headed to see my baby at
once.my baby received me near the door on foot,likely he usually
played alone when at home with the old woman.i held him playing on the
balcony but later i was distracted by the wish to settle his mother's
notebook.last night i download free firewall and antivirus soft and i
just need a try.my baby let me alone for quite some time but sometimes
he drag my hand to lead me away from the notebook.i evade him for
sometimes.after 10:30 he cried loudly for my cares and i gave up pc
and held him outside and he fell into sleep as soon as we downstairs
to ground floor.he slept on my shoulders in the south garden and again
some people asked us to return home and soon my baby was woke up by
illwilled people around and we shifted to his mother's school where we
received his mother.at home before lunch my baby laughed a lot with
hide-and-see with his mother.but soon after lunch i busy with notebook
till 4:30 pm i held him out to receive his mother and he again slept
just left his mother's home.he is now growing up and under trainning
by god.god let illwilled persons around our home desperate to exert on
him.but he forever safe and sound.
on the way leaving his mother's home i felt sorry for him.i should
caress him more,for i come over rightly to see him.his mother not so
interested in my work for her.
bye.days and nights let us love blunt.i don't know how far u ahead
me.i only know fight myself a safe cave for the unclear ur presence.i
only know god's seeing my chores.
i love u.kiss u with the purity of the coming first snow.

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还我河山

你在清贫中呆得太久了
你分不清月色的石子和清癯的星
眸子的星芒浮于薄霭
厌倦的兽眼阴雨中低低沉吼

bright sunshine afternoon

i laid myself on bed listening music radio till 4 pm.dogs hunting and
let my pda hanged a time.after 4 pm i got up and want to read
newspaper but the newspaper room out of service.so i took a tour to
the eatern zone of qrrs which underwent large changes under the
ambitions of qrrs and the municipal gov. .there r some open space
around the qrrs hotel for receiving its foreign and national
guests,which covered with grass and a few trees enclosed by
fence.nearby middle school had a new teaching building.leaving its old
2 floor building extending some area likely being occupied by
management stuff.qrrs even build 3 building of 15 floor or higher but
their ground floor mostly locked now,indicating can't be rent for
service.the state-owned enterprises owning quite some assets not eager
to open to service but hold for a good price.it can be safely said
nowaday china's biggest asset was the land of peasants that been
deprived from its owner.i also tried to find another internet cafe but
in vain.maybe the customer can't afford another,or maybe the cops
monopolied to maxize its profits.
bye.i want to read my google personal homepage,which was block when i
surfed at starsea cafe in the morning.i love u.kiss u with clouds in
the pale blue winter sky.

milk morning sunshine

i got up at 8:22 am.last night i dreamed a lot and being probed a lot.penetrating eyes let me open my eyes in dark for sometimes.i dream i with my wife living on the highest floor,our reef, like my old house in my hometown,covered by tile,leaking all over a lot of rain to our house,wet our bed and floor.a team of drain worker repaired in the neighbor house.i let my wife to leave to eat something first.when i attempt to leave,the team enter my house from window.so l wait to let them repair.then my old father appeared in my home.my wife seemed not happy with him.then i played glass ball with some kids of my hometown and won them three 2 times.a young doctor of my hometown named zhuhongshu(grand technology) chatted with me and let me have some medicine to assist my recovery.my mother also in the dream,but i now forget what she did.most vivid was the rain pouring from the reef to our home,to our bed and floor.my baby seemingly also in the dream weak and let my wife burning and me sorry.when i woke up i felt i had to write it down on my blog.and i m eager to urine.
so its a working day.i probablely will go over to see if my baby's mother's adsl working.last night i read awhile 'be friend with god' and really relieved by god's grace and open love.i felt its the process of breaking barrier.i look forward to my living with soul and freedom.
bye.i love u.kiss u.

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还我河山

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i really love blogger.so i can't help worry that my blog title,benzyrnill,was registered by others.
these two blog all belong to me,benzrad,i hope a day i can spare time to cultivate blog here.but now i only write in http://benzillar.blogspot.com
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